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woke up at 3pm today, and i missed out on quite a bit, haha!

my bro went for his surgery in the morning, by the time i woke up, he was home already. slept like a pig the entire day.

parents also got a camera which has really cool features (apparantly).

right after i woke up, went with my mum for her pap smear. drove to nuh, then realise wrong hospital, then drove to mount e.

tons of hospital in a day! (bro's was at tts)

went to hmv and stuffs, then daddy went to get a phone.

picked up the kids, went to novena to walk (again) and had dinner.

my sis went to build a bear, haha!! it was lame... but it's cute!!

tiring day! going to cheehin's place tomorrow!! :D that bitch doesnt have dvds and she's inviting us for movie HAHA wtf.

took our hcl o lvl today! and if i dont have to retake it next year, it's the end of chinese for my entire life!!! can't believe i spent the last 10 years of my life learning chinese just for the paper i took today!

i have drum make up class next week! have chalet next week too, and initially i was glad cause i found out it was course holiday. but then my teacher owed us one lesson, so he booked the studio next week. i dont know if i should be happy or not! sucks having to travel to and fro...but i really like class! :D

i lay in bed last night from 12 to 4am!! just couldnt fall asleep...in the end i only managed to sleep 2.5hours. oh amazing i'm still alive right now. i think i am going to sleep.



(click to enlarge!)

LOL slovenian!

kids are such a pain in the ass! my little cousin who just learnt how to walk, came over to me and stared at me eating chocolate. i offered her some and dangled the chocolate in front of her. she just stared at me blankly, then after 10 seconds, ran to her maid, crying.

'pinkpink, why you cry!'

then that little bitch 'jie jie!! jie jie!!! bohooooo'

wtf man! what did i do?!?! i just offered chocolate to that poor kiddo who has nothing except milk to drink!!!






bald again, and hot as usual!

credits to elite model, and huishan for showing me the web! HAHA

okok, ears abit elf-y but still, goodness!

lol finished paris hilton's new bff season 2 already! so glad that stephen won!!

anyway, huishan asked me if i started on chi already, so i said yes, but gave up after reading 3! then she said she read 2, and i kinda didnt believe it cause nobody could've been as impatient as me! so i asked if she meant 2 compos or what, and she said she meant 2 sets! LOL she said if she read 2 compos it would've been stupid. haha wtf man, i read 3 compos. what am i! :(

anyway i kinda made myself believe i wouldnt be retaking chi next year. i mean, d7?? hell, i'll pass!


i'm really hungry right now, and i think i grew fatter in like 2 days, cause on cca day i still didnt feel fat. damn it.

watched paris hilton's new bff till 7am this morning hahha! finished the entire season 1! when i was washing up, preparing to go to sleep, my mum was preparing to go to work, wth! and when i woke up at 6pm, my daddy came home -_-

anyway i have thrown away all my tests papers, and the useless chinese stuff. i have packed all the chinese stuff i am going to read neatly in a file, so now all i'm left to do is really read chinese for the remaining 3 days.

i have like 2 ring files worth of physics stuff. i dont dare to throw!!!!!! this is sickening :(






newest guy! yes totally cute overload HAHA

anyway, mickey mouse guy aside, i am totally in love with sean faris again!!!! saw hsi old pics in my picture folder and just cant help looking at it again :P apparantly he appeared in one tree hill, so zhiqi please tell me if he's cute in there!!

dead dead dead!!! my maid is going home next week, for good!

how now?!?!?! only left one maid sure dieeeeeeee.

fucking bored :( everyone i talk to tell me to go play game with bryce. what is the world coming to man?!?!?

i feel so shitty when i play games with people. everyone multitasks and ignores me, but patronises me and i just wanna stab them but i cant.

seriously man, and i also get pissed when people ignores me. or rejects me. or whatever.

i'm spoilt. damn it.

went for cca today. before that had lunch with cheehin and mp at vivo, haha.

cca was pretty short, 2hours only. but i press the strings until my finger very numb! howhowhow!

zhiqi reminded me that next tues is o lvl chinese. damn it. time to start studying, and the only plan i have is to read the fan wens. is there any way to study chinese?!?!

i was just reading this thread about girls accidentally getting pregnant and had to go for abortions and stuffs. and like, most of the responses were 'too excited; couldnt get condoms'.

and i just dont get it! why cannot after have sex then go get morning after pills, just to be safe? (iirc, those pills were originally used for rape victims :/) according to wikipedia,

For 10 mg of mifepristone taken up to 120 hours (5 days) after intercourse, the combined estimate from three trials was an effectiveness of 83%

with these kinda data, i dont understand how anyone can get pregnant 'accidentally', LOL.

today was just great!

woke up at 12 after 7 hours of sleep. yes slept at 5am after playing tons of msn games, LOL.

met janice at clementi after that. initial plan was to take 165 straight there, then 166 came first. glanced at the board, and saw that 166 was only a few stops more than 165, so i took it. fucking bad mistake. firstly, i sat in the bus for 1.5hours. i swearrrrrr my butt hurt. second, janice reminded me it passed by our school. damn it, the last 20min of the bus ride was hell. the ncc girls kept shouting and were bloody noisy.

so anyway just went to her house and took funny pics heh.

went to jp to watch jennifer's body. quite scary, but not the sort that will make me scared of bathing alone. the movie ended at like 9.30, and i got home by 10.30!! amazing!! i have no idea why the bus ride was so short..

and then i came home and talk to huishan about hot guys, LOLL!! then we just shared names and gushed over guys LOLLL. she said we were damnn horny, hahah!! ok, so i am horny :P

it was damn fun though. and i showed her the allhotmen site, and she was pissed that yx didnt show her that site, HAHA!

god, today was awesome!


OMG GASPARD WITH SHAVED HAIR. SO SO SOOOO CUTE!!!


this ax model is beyond hot!!

ps/ after staring into that pic for 5min, i realised i like guys with no hair! as in not balding but they shaved LOL. crap man. this is unbelievable.

The hypothalamus is one of the most important parts of the brain, involved in many kinds of motivation, among other functions. The hypothalamus controls the "Four F's":

fighting;
fleeing;
feeding; and
mating.

-Psychology professor in
neuropsychology intro course

lol.

went for dinner and shopping today at j8. saw my cousin at cotton on's fitting room, LOL! and my aunt's coming with us to cambodia or where ever we're going!

i just had this craving for guitar solos (again).

ok decided i had enough of fighting with my scores. and thanks to zhiqi's paperclips, i finally clipped everything to my book. my idea better not fail me!

ok, so today was the last day of school!

it doesn't feel like it. i just continue drinking my milo and it feels like nothing has changed.

sucks to think next year we'll all be in different classes. i hateeeeee change :( sucks to think i'll most probably not be in the same class as zhiqi, and i'll have to make new friends (which i'm really bad at. really really really bad).

got back our progress report today. pleasant surprise!! i totally deserve nothing higher than a 3.4, but they moderated like siao!! it's so bloody unfair for those who worked hard and did well (haha).

sometimes i think of those people who mug like mad and never do well, i dont know if i should be sad for them, or be happy for myself. and sometimes i think of those really pro people (think gpa 4.0), and i wonder if they find me stupid.

//

stayed home today cause i had like flu/sore throat and a ton of funny other things. mum said exams are over and it didnt matter if i went to school or not, so yea!

anyway i woke up at like 2 today, when everyone is dismissed from school, LOL.

and then i packed my stack of worksheet, and everything i did this year. when it came to the geog/physics pile, i had such a hard time deciding if i should just throw away everything. in the end i didnt, shit! it's so sucky to know i studied geog and physics for 4 years for nothing! :(

anyway i threw away like a 50cm pile of worksheets. and i dont know how to settle all my books. all the textbooks/storybooks/magazines. crap man. should've sold them at the book sale thing. blame my laziness :(

and i refuse to alter my jeans!:( it costs 8bucks just to shorten the length...sucks man. but if i dont alter, i cannot wear it cause there's just too much excess :(:(

ok, since janice said the guy i posted is not hot cause he took off his pants, here's more to make her change her mind!

(fully clothed, and same guy)





my favourite!!

semi naked hot guys!

whooo. it's good.



(and i'm not disgusting!)

sian zhiqi never come online when i'm happy! i bought tons of things!!

anyway today was my mother's first day driving. tons of funny stories she shared haha!

tomorrow is school it's gonna be so boring! :(

and i'm dead for chinese.


FUCKING PISSED OFF






i sometimes think i'm void of certain emotions. like sadness, and jealousy.

my 'sadness' comes in variations, like annoyed, irritated, tired, sian and angry. nothing makes me sad, like stuff that happens in my life. only movies or that kind of thing makes me sad, but not the 'i am depressed, i wanna kill myself' kind of sad. :/

maybe some parts of my brain didnt develop well..lol

maid just asked me if i wanted cake. i am such a pig.

so screwed this morning. woke up with a mouthful of blood, bloodshot eyes and a fucking black face. i scared myself when i looked into the mirror, and when i spat into the sink. it was crazy, i just kept rinsing my mouth, kept brushing my teeth, kept spitting, and there was still blood. so i just gave up, and i could still taste blood in my mouth. ew

got back LA and chinese, pretty pleased with both! :D i know i got a just-pass for chinese, but it still makes me happy. some people just dont understand how hard it is to even pass chinese!!!

and i learnt today people would sacrifice sleep and stuff just to study. i wonder if it's a good thing, to have so much perseverance? is it worth it, even, just for one exam? i think i would never be so extreme, cause there's nothing much i really care about :/

oh well. tired.


just as i was raving about tutu-s yesterday, i saw this huge thingy on the f21 website today!!!

so exciting! everyone (even kids) looks so cute in tutus AAHHAHA! i love it so much!!

got back tons of papers today. geog, cid, chinese, and the remainder of bio!

so happy for bio!!!! i really thought a1 was impossible! and i was barely clinging on to an a2!! but yay :D:D my studying paid off!!!!!!!

geog and chinese was just okok. i got an a1 for geog still, but i think it's one of the lowest in class already, haha. lol whatever.

and i failed cid like maddddddd. it's so bad i think i will fail overall too. damn, my gpa!

i just need 30 for the remainder chinese to pass :D so yay i passed chinese (i hope, LOL. i'll be in deep shit if i dont!)!!!!

now just left with LA. think i'll do just okok, i hope. i still havent decided if my essay was bad :/

anyway, i'm bored everyday :( someone save me!



whee pink tutu skirt.



crazy amount of atm receipts i dug out from under my desk.. :(:(:(:(:(

I AM GOING MADDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

spent a grand total of 198.52 on online stuff. what is my world coming to?!?!?!!? :(:(:(:(



this is nice, i gotta buy it!


LOL LOL LOL

my room is so messy but i'm too lazy to go pack it :(

and my mummy bought a car yesterday! i'm constantly amazed by my parents. they never need to go home and 'consider', they just buy it on the spot. last time was a condo, and now a car! plus the car can only sit 2 people...waste of money!

and my little bro is amazing too. my mum showed him a photo of the car with the logo barely visible and he can tell what car it is. that crazy boy, can hardly count to 20, but knows the brand of every car out there!

i can't wait to see the car! my mummy will be driving me to school everyday when we move to the new campus :D yay.



zhiqi says this song is good! but anyway, that aside, it sounds really NIGHTWISH to me :/ especially the melody part in the middle, i can totally hear them playing it! hm weird. and that song is about death, how depressing.

damn sai. stupid bio. A1 is almost impossible now... got back ppr1 and section B of ppr2 today. have to get 39 for section A to get an A1.. really sian. it's probably the only subject i want to get A1 for :(

am still pretty pissed about one of the questions in the paper!! they asked if i thought the 2 flowers were of different species or not, then i said no. then the stupid marker just circled my 'no' and put a damn big cross!! stupid la!! how the fuck would i know if they are different species or not just by the number of petals!! and if they are different species, why would the question ask us for the definition of variation?! fuckkk! i still think my answer should be accepted, honestly.

and phy was just shiok. my 15min work paid off!! really damn happy! got like a b3, which is quite good by my standards for phy!!

zhiqi's not coming online! :(

got the gg cookies today. going to start eating them now and grow fat!

got back maths and chem today! very very pleased with maths, and felt i did not bad for chem too, though it's probably one of the lowest in class, but everyone knows our class is crazy! :P oh well excuses you say!

getting back phy tomorrow! i hope we get back many many papers, get everything settled, then time to enjoy life!

for a moment i forgot, in a month's time, we've got chinese o lvls. sucks big time.

went to watch 500 days of summer today (oh bad girls!). LOL the ending was just __. so sorry to janice! didnt know you didnt want to go to town!

went to hmv again after that! didnt realise breaking ben's album made it to number 6, and paramore to number 1!! so exciting man, so glad there are people out there who like breaking ben too!! :D

just came home from watching MY SISTER'S KEEPER. kind of boring and not very sad to me, though my bro and mum both cried, HAHA!

anyway, i got BREAKING BEN'S latest album!! it was released like 2 weeks ago, but i was just too lazy to listen to it and decide if i wanna get it. so yesterday i was reallyyy bored so went to listen to it, and it was so good!! went down today to get it! i was prepared to pay about 30 for it, but i got a pleasant surprise! cost less than 20bucks. so shiok. got my bro the new paramore album as well, since i had extra cash left.

back to school tomorrow. sucks just thinking about it.



heard this song in zara when i was shopping yesterday.

makes me think there's still a part of me that loves boy bands haha!!

the guy is cute hor.

HAHA LOL.

janice microwaved her food for 10 minutes, then came telling me about how her food was majorly burnt, and the entire house smelt sick.

then smsed zhiqi about movies, she said her parents pissed, she couldnt go out.

i swear i had a crazy time laughing!!! so damn funny!!! i just imagine zhiqi behind bars and i can laugh till i drop!!

and janice's being a pig, 'be right back' for like 10 minutes, and still not back!!

played 'boulevard of broken dreams' today, pretty similar to what we've always been playing but oh! cool parts! ;D

and one of the other 2 girls in my class is quitting. the other girl was like 'hey, are you quitting soon?'

then i said no, and she was like 'PHEWWWW!!!!!!' hahah. my class is down to a size of 3, from a grand total of 10, HAHA!



aw lion king used to my favourite!!! sang this song in choir before too.

listening to it makes me wanna cry :(

dont look at the guy singing it though. fucking gay, still wear earring?!?!! i thought long hair was the worst it would ever get.

bought a ton of stuffs!!!

it's been long!!! :D

fuck cid :( 1hour for 2 essays is just out to killlllll

been really bored the whole of today!

no idea how to pass the time after exams..

missed.

have screwed up enough papers! time to work hard for my very last, bio!!

5.30pm now. i wonder if i can complete 18 topics in 4 hours?

wish me luck oh yea!

edit/
done with 6 chapters!! a third through! i hope i make it till the end before giving up!

anyway, watching SISTER's KEEPER next tuesday! yay :) right after exam = movies movies movies!!

i just remembered tuesday is marking day! yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

finally done with maths!! seriously so relieved!!

did like a few questions on surds and logs last night, then i gave up studying cause i was too tired. haha wtf man, i studied less than how i would've studied for a test! damn lucky though, survived today's paper!! i still have hope for an A, i think!

pretty thankful (yet again) that i didnt study much, HAHA! would have wasted so much time for nothing man!

and physics tomorrow. so agonisingggggg! it's like maths coming back to haunt me!

took geog today! i finally realised it's impossible to study a subject in 1day! i am so fucking screwed for this entire week. damn, why do i only realise this now!!

and after typing the topics for cheehin (ya la, again!) for maths, i realise it's not as little as i thought!! wow crap looks like i wont be able to start on phy today.

and howwwww impossible to study bio in 1 day!!! aiyo so screwed they should move bio to the next week! :(:(

seriously man, if my gpa for this exam actually hits 3, it will be a miracle!! thank god this exam is only 50% and my gpa for the past 50% was quite high!!!

I have 2 days for three sciences and math. And I'm supposed to survive. Nope, I ain't stress. More of disturbed than stress actually. Can't wait for everything to be over. Can't wait to indulged myself in all the :D stuff.

Laura! Let's get ourselves inked!!

from zhiqi's.

cant stop smiling when i read this.

cant agree more!! not stressed at all, and this whole thing doesnt feel like eoys.

no fucking idea how i'm going to complete studying all these things in 2 days haha. but after next week, i'll probably look back and think i'm god. HAH!

when i think of the time after next week, damn shiok!!!! 2 months of break plus starting school later then the yr 1-4s?!?!?! totally awesome!!

2 months to do whatever we want. does it get any better than this?!?! ohh can't waitt!!!


(PWP model)
so pretty! she has tons of tattoos!! from her thighs to her arms to her entire back!

zhiqi thinks she is scary though..

haha today was pretty shiok. exams for 1.5hrs, then home!

essay today was pretty good. read the article 'are men more disadvantaged in today's world?' in BROADER PERSPECTIVE yesterday. then today exam came out 'have men lost the battle of the sexes?'. HAHA i kind of just piak everything i remembered down. tons of examples, and barely any explanation/elaboration. the examples pretty self explanatory though, so i had no idea how to write more.

maths tomorrowwwww. after tomorrow, i think can slack a bit. since the next week only got science and geog. hate maths, i better get at least a B. bleh. cant do partial fractions for fuck's sake.

bleh exam tomorrow!!

so fast leh. only prepared (slightly) for tomorrow's paper, and mostly finished the topics for friday's ppr!

all the sciences plus geog are left untouched. bless me :D

i-in refunded me 200! i am a god, knew it long ago. plus i work miracles in vww :P

went back to school for all 3 days of the study break. mrtan must be fucking sick of me already.

must find good black drumsticks! my teacher has deformed ones. pretty unique.

i am fucking dead.

halfway through differentiation only, left the entire integration. and cheehin asked me the topics tested, then i realised i havent touched binomial and coordinate geometry.

crap. seriously feel like giving up. just do what i can (which probably is like a quarter of what will be tested), and work hard for the rest of the subjects.

i think i would have done that, if maths is not considered as 2 subjects!

damnnn i really really really wanna just study chem and bio. maths sucksssss!!!

and cheehin tell me the LA ppr on thursday is compo ppr, not compre ppr. superrrrrr dead.

lol saw this thread on the forum, titled Ris Low Boomzz Liao . see the thread title only, i got so excited already.

clicked on it, was about her credit card fraud case.

there was this comment superrrrrr funny!!

she notti cannot wear red liao.
cannot wear bigini also.
cannot wear her zibra prints.

LOLLLLLLL. can't seem to stop laughing whenever i see things regarding her. oh god.

Individuality is overrated.
We are stronger united.

quoted from a movie i just watched.

haha reminds me of the chinese chopsticks story :P

bam! completed bio nutrition and respiration!

damn siann these few days. everyday i've been at least doing an hour of work at home, and i still havent started studying.

stupid maths la! take up so much time. do one hour of maths, finish up bio mcq, and i cant take it anymore, need to sleep.

damn i still said i wanted to finish up the sciences this week. i must have been crazy. who in the right mind would say anything close to that?!?!!

bleh.

still havent started on ANY physics rev paper, chem still left like 4 papers, and bio i can't find one of them, so only left with 1. completed part of it on the bus though.

luckily maths is next week. quickly get it over and done with, then can concentrate on the sciences! i am desprately hoping that paper2 will be filled with questions regarding quadratic though. fucking cant do differentiation and integration.